Thirsty....blood thirsty?

Here are some scatterbrained thoughts spurred by tonight's meeting.

Ben Kenigsberg...thanks for saying something I've been thinking all fall. And having the credentials to back it up.

"We have to want it"

I'm genuinely happy to run into guys on the street outside of class and tell me they're excited about this season and how they think we have a good chance. It raises my spirits. But setting goals like "win games...win a tournament...getting to regionals...etc" is bullshit if EVERYONE is not willing to work their ass off (I agree with what Husayn said tonight, people should be fighting for playing time, I dont know if I have the same perspective about our "depth" compared to other teams, but I do agree in the fighting for PT idea). For the past 2 years, I've heard the same "goal" to get to regionals...get NYU on the map... And it frustrates me to think about people saying that because I know that the guys who truly want to reach that goal kill themselves at the gym and on the field..but our team hasn't reached that goal because their teammates didn't put the same amount of work in at the gym, track, practice field. To be frank, (and I will not name any names because it could change this year with our work out schedules and whatnot) I have serious doubts about how many times certain players ever went to the gym last year and did anything productive. 

Sure, we've always had heart, but we're playing a real sport. We're not just competing against ourselves.  However hard you will something, you're still limited by your body and mental game. And if you say you want something like a sectionals title, stop saying you want to win and hit the damn gym. Punish yourself because you "said" you "wanted" the title last year and look where that got us? (not saying i'm innocent) I think it's great to have a goal like winning sectionals, but I like to be short sighted in setting my goals such as: bitching out every person I guard, embarrassing my marker, and smashing every team we play into the ground. and my new goal is to get into the shape i need to do all those things.

I get a little heated. I play with my emotions on my sleeve (i say i'm just competitive) when I'm on the field and I'm proud to lose my voice on the sidelines... I guess thats why I'm called Rampage. But thats what I need to do to motivate myself to work hard. I need to fire myself up. On the field, I respectfully hate every opponent out there. I want to embarrass them. 

I dream about ultimate. There are nights I dream about rushing the field after winning on universe point in the game to go to regionals and nationals...I dream about laying out for that goal and grippin the disc so fricken hard that my fingers break thru the disc. *big breath*

It's going to be what we do this winter. Every squat you do, think about the skying that fool from Rutgers. Every mile you run, think of the Vassar guy who is gasping for air behind you. I want everyone on Haze to find something that motivates them to get in the best shape of their lives they can this winter. I found my motivation and how I'm goin to achieve my goals.

Things I want: Trust each of my teammates wants it as badly as I do. That trust will be gained when I see that they've been putting their all into improving their throws, their endurance, their understanding of the game, their speed. I want to see my teammates pumped to win a point, I want to see them absolutely disgusted when we lose a point. I want everyone to know what they need to do to help the team. I want to trust every person the field with the disc, trust they'll make the smart choice and be able to execute that option.

I lose sleep thinking about how badly I want our team to win, how bad I want to be in Edinborough. But more so than that, I want each of us to play for everyone else. I want to see people literally cutting hard and clearing hard for their teammates, handlers moving the disc efficiently effectively, confidently, and rewarding cutters for their hard work. I dont want to be end this season with people saying "look out for Haze next year" because we stuck with teams. I want us to go out there and crush teams and have people say "look out for Purple Haze THIS year."

How bad do you want it?